Thursday, July 31, 2014

Blessed

When the going gets tough
And life seems a bit rough
There is only one person that I turn to
And God that is you
Because no one can do for me
Not even my closest friends and family
The way that you can
As I am only seeing one set of footprints in this sand
And I know that you are there for me more than I realize
And it's time for me to stop trying to view things through closed eyes
Even though at times it feels that I've got my fair share
I know that you'll never put more on me than I can bare
I only wish that others had more faith and trust in you as I do
And that they would put more effort into loving you
Rather than chasing street dreams and fancy cars
Or women that they picked up in bars
No God that isn't the life for me
I'm thankful everyday for my little family
And I thank you for everyday that you wake me

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Quality Time

I want to lay in your arms for an hour or two
Just feeling the love pouring from you
We can spend some time talking about life
Or maybe the possibility of becoming your wife
Or tell me a secret and I promise to keep it between you and me 
And if you share your secret I'll tell you my wildest fantasy 
But can you handle that baby 
Now I'm not trying to drive you away 
Nah I'll do what I have to if it means you'll stay
Because I'm crazy about you 
And I forever want you to be my boo
So anything that you want from me 
I'll do it satisfaction guaranteed
And I know that you want me 
I can tell by the way u look at my body
Undressing me with your eyes 
Baby the eyes never lie
But I won't force the issue 
As long as I can lay here with you 
Holding you and cuddling with you
Because that's what I really want to do
As long as you know that I love you 
And I know that you love me too
Then nothing else matters to me
That's all I need to make me happy
So come lay in my arms all night 
Doesn't matter if we're friends or lovers as long as you're in my life

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Missing That Someone

It hurt so much to know
That we just let each other go
But you should know that you stay on my mind
Because you were a good friend of mine
And I still love you
I told you that you'll always be my boo
Damn you mean so much to me
So yes I'm struggling to let you be
I didn't want to let you go
But I was too stubborn to tell you tho
So we've just lost touch
And I miss you so much
I'm trying not to cry writing this
Because our friendship fell apart with the help of a bitch
And I thought we were better than that
Considering how far we go back
Some say that's what I get for falling in love with you
And at times I agree with that too
Because I let myself go
When I should've been telling you no
I gave you too much of me
And it showed for everyone to see
I'm heartbroken and can't stop crying
But if I said I didn't still want you I'd be lying
I truly miss my friend
And I never thought I'd see the end
I pray that one day we'll be back like we used to be
The anything goes duo that was you and me

Friday, July 18, 2014

They Call Me Crazy

They say I'm a crazy bitch
But I just don't take much shit
Especially from you dumb niggas
You still obsessed with trying to be a playa nigga?
Bitch grow the fuck up
And learn to shut the fuck up
Because I'm about to flip the fuck out
And bust you in your mouth
Because I heard that you've been talking bad
And I'm laughing more than I am mad
But you're not on my level tho
You're a simple ass hoe
Still fucking those ghetto "things"
Nigga get yo shit together and try to get a real queen
Yeah you're not ready for that right
You're still trying to be "about that life"
Nigga I could school you real quick
Bring you up to speed on a lot of shit
But when I start talking I'm a crazy bitch
And you tell me that I'm on bullshit
I say you're just a stupid trick
Content with dealing with the same shit
So I guess what I'm trying to say
Is fuck you in every way
Because crazy is something that I'll always be
But I love that shit because I'm just being me

To: You

I've spent most of my life loving you
And now I know that's not what I was suppose to do
You weren't meant to get that much of my time
You weren't meant to stay on my mind
You turned out to be a road block in my life
An obstacle to keep me from living right
So I've began doing what I'm supposed to do
I've began releasing my grasp on you
I'm living life and doing me
Not caring if you and I will ever be
That's all a part of the past
Because God showed me that you weren't meant to last
And even though it hasn't been that long
I'm already happier since I've moved on
And please forgive me if this comes across mean
I'm just being honest, I'm no longer playing for your team
And I know that you won't miss me
I'm just one fish out of an entire sea
But it's sad because I loved you
But that wasn't the case of you loving me too
So good luck to you
Wish you well in whatever you do
And I hope you find love one day
Just don't look for it to come from this way

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Dead & Gone

I want you gone
And I want to be left alone
Leave no evidence of you and me
I wish I could erase our memories
Because you've hurt me too many times
Next time I might lose my mind
I might just go off of the deep end
And start war against you my friend
Yes I need anger management, I'll admit it
But you've pushed me to this limit
You've got me thinking crazy thoughts
Like should I destroy you or not
Because I tried to love you
But I guess I didn't do enough for you to love me too
So it's fuck you from now on
And I don't care who thinks it's wrong
I'm freeing myself from your bullshit
And that's too bad because me and you could have been the shit
But you play too many games
And at your age you should really be ashamed
And even though I'll never forget your name
I'm killing all thoughts of you that sat on my brain
Yeah to me you're officially dead and gone
Now I can happily live my life and move on

Saturday, July 5, 2014

The Realist

Dudes that claim to be the realist
Don't even make my friend list
Because everything that you own
Even down to your home
Wasn't acquired through you
But probably your main boo
Out here claiming to be real
But we know the real deal
Taking credit for what others do
But stunting like it's all you
Out here locking down hoes
But saying you want a woman with morals and goals
And to think I used to take pity on you
I see now that's just how you do
Always looking for someone else to blame
You need to be ashamed
Out here hustling like it's cool
In reality you look like a damn fool
Because you're too old for that shit
And you're too old to still be slanging dick
Big boys with little boy dreams
When dealing with you everything ain't always what it seems
So go back to drama filled life
And you might as well make that hoe your wife
Because no real woman will want you
Not as long as you continue to do what you do
But you dudes don't care
You'll continue to be faker than these bitches hair
And stop talking like little school girls
Telling your business to the whole damn world
You fake ass dudes ain't worthy of shit
Especially me writing this
But real recognize "real"
So I had to tell you how I feel
I hope you learned something from this
If nothing more than you niggas ain't shit


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