The Pain

Lately pain is all that I know
I just try not to let it show
From the loss of my son
To the emotional loss of other loved ones
My heart is heavy with sorrow
I no longer look forward to tomorrows
Because tomorrow is just another day that I'll cry
Sometimes I don't even know why
I wish the pain would go away
I wish some people, thoughts, and memories could be washed away
I wish I could remove this scar from my heart
It feels like its been hit with a million darts
But no one ever understands me
So I let my emotions and feelings be
Do I not deserve to be happy?
Why do I feel like no one loves me?
I'm tired of being the supportive one for everyone else
When no one cares about my health
I give without question
Don't take without hesitation
Yet who's even doing for me?
Oh that's right, nobody
The pain is so real
I don't know that my heart will ever heal
But I'm dying inside
From all of these feelings that I hide
I just want it all to go away
I just want see better days