Say What?!

You had me seeing red

I wasn't just in my head

I was processing what you said

You hit me with a line

That's been running through my mind

And I hope that it goes away with time

But the disrespect was real 

Now I don't know how to feel

You threw out some sex shit

I don't know how you expected it to hit

But the fact that it was said just wasn't it

You made it seem like I was lucky to have you

And that statement might be true 

But what makes you think that the same doesn't apply to you

You said you could be slurping and fucking her instead of me

You said that shit like I should feel lucky

Yet I don't even touch on how many niggas wanna slurp and fuck me

But the fact that it was said

Is what is swimming around my head

That's some shit that should never be said to your lady

That's some shit that should never be said to me

And to set the record straight I'm not with you for your "body"

Because dick don't move me

Nor does it rule me

I was with you trying to blend and create a family

I'm not fucked up though

Just wanted you to know

Don't be quick to jump at me and treat me like I'm a hoe

Fuck not wanting to look like a simp

Because I'm not trying to date a pimp

Nor do I want a whimp

I want someone that can show me love no matter what

Someone to listen without always yelling "What the fuck"

I want a man that's gone love me for me

I want a man that's ready to be a family

I need a man that's all about me

Mind, body, and soul

To have and to hold

Together forever as we grow old

But no matter what respect me

And I'll respect you as your lady

All is fair in love and war

Until you push me too far

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Missing You Son

My heart is so heavy

We were nowhere near ready

I never thought God would call you home

Now I feel so alone

The house is so quiet without you 

I spend a lot of time not knowing what to do

I stare at your pictures in my phone

I cry while talking to you when I'm alone

Son since you've been gone

These days seem so long

I'm so hurt behind this

I miss being able to say "Hey Tris!"

I miss hearing you laugh and seeing you smile

No parent should have to live without their child

Lord why did you call him home?!

Why is my child gone?!

Life just doesn't seem right without you

I spend my days not knowing what to do

I cry more than people know

I try not to let my depression show

But the pain is so deep rooted

Because from my life my child was abruptly uprooted

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you

Tell your brother that I deeply miss him too

My loverboys have left me

Now I feel so empty

Lord I wish this could be undone

Just know that I love and miss you son

And I don't know when 

But I will see you again

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God Take Away the Pain

His smile, charm, and sex appeal melted my heart

His drinking, lies, cheating, and disrespect tore my heart apart

The person that I fell in love with left me a long time ago

And the person that took his place I couldn't get to know

I loved him with everything in me

But I didn't feel that same love poured back into me

I gave all that I could 

I now see that I gave more than I should

Yet even with all of the lies 

The silence brings tears to my eyes

When will this pain go away

I just want to make it through one day

One day without crying

One day without feeling like dying

I want the pain in my heart to go away

But I want the fun memories to stay

They ask how I can still love him though

And honestly I don't even know

But I pray for forgiveness and for God to cleanse me

Because I know that deep down I am not the enemy

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The End of a Cycle

 The pain that I'm hiding has become too much

I'm suffering in silence and losing trust

You have controlling ways 

And dictated my days

You doubted everything that I say 

You took my freedom away

You always questioned who I was talking to

Yet I didn't do the same to you

I sat in silence so that can enjoy your call

But when I'm on the phone I barely got to talk to them at all

Because you all of a sudden had so much to say

Even if we had been next to each other all damn day

And you're friendly to everyone but especially to females

But I better not had even dared think of being that way with males

There's a double standard with everything 

And you grew to be extra mean

But we never speak on what you do

Even if that's the reason that I "acted a fool"

Nope, we always skipped over those details

And focus on me like I'm always raising hell

The drinking stressed me out 

But that's never something you wanted to talk about

The constant gossiping and drama

I got no financial help, yet you gave plenty to your baby momma

You blocked me on most social media so that you could do you

Reacting to their pictures and talking to them in your inbox too

My son even saw it and brought it to my attention one day

But like an idiot I brushed it away

You were unreliable when things needed to be done

But because I stopped complaining about things you felt as if you had won

I was 100% loyal to you

And you claimed you were too

I definitely didn't believe that anymore

I've seen enough that I'm deeply hurt to my core

You messaged people right in my face like I didn't know

I truly believe that you think I'm slow

You jumped between screens whenever I glanced your way

But what's the need to do that unless you're trying to clear something away

And if I asked, you deny

It got to a point where I could no longer cry

I just wanted to feel loved and respected

But I always felt neglected

I felt like I was only good for sex

And even with that I felt as if I was not your best

You claimed that you loved me

But I found that to believe

I never thought that you would be my ex

But I wish you nothing but the best

I pray that sobriety, help, love, and happiness finds you

And I pray to God that he cleanses and bless me too

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Prisoner in my Home

 

I feel like a prisoner in my own home

How did I let things go so wrong?

Noone could have prepared me for this

Nor would I have accepted this

But somehow the love got lost

I accepted the death of this girl boss

I took off my crown

I let the desire for love boss me around

I failed at being an empowering woman

The woman staring back at me is not who I want to be

I can see the plea in her eyes to make her happy

But how do I do that?

How do I bounce back?

There is a dark cloud that doesn’t leave me alone

A thunderstorm is always brewing in my home

I watch the tears fall down my face

As they fall upon my lips for me to taste

I taste the bitterness that I’ve held onto for too long

It’s time for me to right my wrongs

 

Today I take a stand to no longer be pushed aroun

Today is the day that I reclaim my crown

For today is the day that I stare back at myself

And for once I recognize my own wealth

I reclaim my name

I will rise to fame

I will be the best that I can be

I will be happy

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Hard to say Goodbye

I just want the stress to go away

I just want to see the better days

But what if I'm stuck looking dumb

Because those better days never come

What if misery is all that I see?

What if my dreams have betrayed me?

I just want to be happy with you

I want to see you happy too

But it seems that our time has ended

We've been real life unfriended

You slowly pushed me away

I tried to keep my heart from going astray

But the hurt that you caused me

Helped tremendously in setting you free

I loved you beyond words

I often said I love you even when my voice was unheard

But you had other plans

You obviously didn't want to remain my man

That hurt me more than I can express

It was like someone ripped my heart out of my chest

Just then the Lord told me to keep my head up

Then I remembered that he would always be there when the going got tough

So, I have to set you free

I have to focus on me

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Real Shit

I just wanted to know

That you had really let them go

But instead of a loving conversation

I was met with pure aggravation

It left me wanting to cry

Because one thing I never do to you is lie

I'm as open as can be

And I just want the same for me

I just wanted to know that our love is pure

I just wanted to know that it was okay to be sure

I just wanted confidence in us

I just wanted to know that in us I could trust

You say that I talk to guys

I say that those are all lies

Because everything I do is for all to see

I don't answer guys that message me

I don't hide conversations from you baby

It's all out there for you to see

But that's not good enough for you

But I have complaints too

My complaints don't get addressed

Those conversations just gets finessed 

They get turned back on me

While you carry on doing you and being carefree

You say that I get on your nerves

That's the realest thing I ever heard

But it's a two way street boo

You get on my nerves too

I hate not feeling heard

I hate feeling like everything that I say is absurd

I hate feeling like a fuck up in your eyes

I hate crying all the time

I just want to be treated as a Queen

The way that I respect and love my King

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