Dark Places

People can't understand why
Why I'd rather give up on life and die
They think I don't have fight in me
When I've been in battles a plenty
And I've come out on top
But life doesn't stop
It delivers one blow after the next
No one knows how many are left
And those that don't care
Never really wanted to be there
They just wanted me to go away
So that they can carry on with their day
And even though I stand tall
And fight through it all
The dark thoughts creep in
Which causes me to sin
And causes me to think horrible things
Do things that shouldn't be seen
Love replaces hate
I have feelings that I fight not to escape
And in the end
When I realize that I have no friends
I ask why
Why not die?
Why not end it all?
Everyone is already waiting on my downfall
These are feelings that I face everyday
So I ask you, how would you feel being me for a day?

Can't Be Friends

When everything ends
We won't be friends
And although I pray that we're never apart
Thinking about the end hurts my heart
Because I know that day will come
When our love will come undone
And that terrifies me
Because I've never been this attached to anybody
Through all that we've been through
I still want you
You were my shoulder to cry on
When things went wrong
The one that listened to me cry
When inside I just wanted to die
The one that showed me love from wherever you were
Even through text I felt it through your words
So if you never talk to me again
Know that my love will never end
You left a mark on me
And secrets that will go to the grave with me
Your love can never be replaced
The way you touched my heart can never be erased
But sometimes I feel like we're enemies
Because you get mad with me so easily
And it's at those times
That I'd rather die
Because the pain is too much
I no longer feel that comforting touch
The anger takes over
And we're friends no longer
But life must go on
As if nothing is wrong
When in reality the hardest thing that I have to do
Is carry on without you

Who We Are

What makes you better than me?
Is it because you live your life for all to see?
Is it because you're loose with your money?
I can't find a reason why
But I do see you living a lie
Things aren't really what they seem
But you sold everyone a dream
And I can't be mad at that
I just know the facts
I choose to be me
I don't care what others see
My life might not be perfect
But I know that my life is worth it
Do you really feel that you're living life?
Can you honestly say that EVERYTHING is alright?
I'm not trying to be rude
But you need to adjust your attitude
You need a dose of reality
A sip of your own tea
We all have our own problems in life
But in no way is yours better than mines alright
My life is my life
Who are you to say that I'm not living right?
In the end we are the same
Troubled souls going by a different name
And if I've upset you....sorry not sorry