Confused About Love

I love him so much
Cry because I miss his touch
Would give anything to see him happy
Because I know what he does for me
He makes me smile when I'm down
Even though he's not around
His words soothe me
His touch relaxes my body
I'm his spoiled baby
And he's my big daddy
I would give him the world
If only I was his girl
Yes I admit I'm head over heels for this man
Although I'm not his woman
But it's something about him
That's so different from the rest of them
Like when he says that he loves me
I turn into putty
When he expresses his feelings to me
It makes me so happy
Yet at times the tears fall
Because in my mind our relationship has hit that wall
The one that makes me snap back to reality
About things with him and me
Especially when I can't give him what he wants
Although he believes I just won't
And no matter what happens in life
I'll never be his wife
We can never be together and no one can ever find out
So at times it's hard to express my love so I just shut my mouth
He doesn't know how much that bothers me
Because it'll just come off as selfishness and jealousy
But I just love him unconditionally
And hopes he feels the same way about me
Hell I love him more than I did my ex husband
So you know my feelings are deep for this man
And I can't let him go
So I don't let alot of things show
I often think that I'm loving the wrong guy
But if that's true then why would that statement make me cry
Confused and dazed
Love crazed
These are just some of my problems
When it comes to my heart and him
So farewell until next time
When I need to clear my mind