Just a few things that keep me awake
The thought that I'm losing all my fights
Is the very thing that keeps me up at night
No it's not the fact that I experienced pain
It's the fact that I feel like I didn't gain
It's not the fact that I fell in love again
It's the thought that I'm so broken that this love will also soon end
It's not the many times that I've experienced heartache
It's that I didn't expect to see trusted faces that caused my heart to break
And yeah we all experience betrayal at some point in time
But how do I stop it from constantly replaying in my mind?
I tell myself to keep going
I try to keep the pain from showing
But when the weight of the world is on your shoulders
No one can tell you that it's not over
Because when the only thing that makes you smile
Is the pure and innocence pouring into you from your child
It builds you up so high then tears you down
Man I hate that they want to see me smile but understand why I frown
I hate crying when they're around
I hate that they are the ones fixing my crooked crown
I hate that I'm so unsure of myself
Yet I'm always finding someone else's self wealth
I keep telling myself to close up shop an step away from the world
But Yanee don't want y'all to forget about your girl
So I pour my heart out into these words and write another day
Hoping that one day these words will take the pain away
