Call Me

I've been smoking and thinking of you
Now I can't shake these thoughts of what I want to do
So I picked up a bottle and started drinking too
Now I'm playing with myself and thinking of you
Just to hear your voice sends tingles down my spine
Baby you don't know that you blow my mind
My fingers going deeper
And I'm getting weaker
Ooh baby please call me
Rubbing on my breast
Wishing I was kissing on your chest
Moans starting to escape
Baby I can't wait
Video chat with me
Because this is something I want you to see
I keep replaying our conversation in my head
But I need your voice to send me over the edge
I wish I had your fingers between my legs
Because you always make me wet the bed
Boy you don't know how bad I want you
But I can't even get you to call me boo
So if you want to know what it do
Hit me up because I'm always thinking of you

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Today's Thoughts

What most people don't know is that I wear my heart on my sleeves. I'm a very loving person but when I feel unloved I can become very emotional. And that hurts because I give everyone a chance. It's just in me to be honest with people yet people nowadays don't want honesty. They prefer the lies and gossiping about one another over truth. This is part of the reason why I have trust issues. I don't trust those that smile in my face yet talk behind my back. I don't trust men that say they love me yet display hate towards me. Needless to say I don't trust too many. And I have heard that I am mean. But I say that I'm just being me. I don't sugarcoat things like most and I prefer to tell you what's on my mind as I expect the same from you. Sadly I don't get that respect from most. It hurts so much too. But I've learned to be strong and just pray for those individuals. I've had friends shut me out of their lives overnight and I'm left wondering why. But then God shows me that at that time in their lives they had something going on that he did not want me involved in. Or it did not involve me therefore I did not need to witness it. Either way I no longer cry about people walking out of my life because I know God was saving me from something. And I owe this new found thinking to Joel Osteen. I watched his Sunday morning sermon and it really hit close to home. He said "Don't focus on the problem but focus on the promises". Meaning don't complain about it, thank God for it. Don't say God you know I need you. Say God thank you for the strength that you have given me thus far. It really does make a difference. I feel like I can continue life because I believe again. Yes, I was broken down by a few loved ones but never again. I give my heart over to God. And I didn't write this to preach but just to let people know what was on my mind today. Just to give you a little insight into who I am. I'm a mother. I'm a wife. I'm a hard worker. I'm a friend. I'm a daughter. I'm a writer. I'm a free thinker. I'm me! I hope that you know who you are and if not that you can find yourself before it's too late. Accept you for you and not what or who others want you to be. Everyone has a purpose in life, have you figured yours out yet? It's not too late! Talk to God. Let him know that HE is number one in your life. Prioritize your life the way you say it should be. Anyone that does not agree is probably okay to let go of. Again not preaching but just writing what was on my mind. Love you all!

Yanee Brinks ❤

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Cry For Help

I'm fighting body aches
And thoughts I can't shake
My head is spinning
Feels like the devil is winning
I'm too weak to fight
But giving up isn't right
I don't know what's wrong with me
And that has got me angry
I don't feel like myself
And it's taking a toll on my health
I'm sick all of the time
From the thoughts on my mind
God cast these demons from me
I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy
Help seems so far away
When you're unsure if you'll see another day
So many restless nights
I feel I'm losing this fight
I wonder what's taking so long
I don't want to live wrong
Calling on God is all that I can do
GOD YOU KNOW THAT I NEED YOU
Remove these thoughts from my head
As I lay in bed
And beg for your forgiveness
For even allowing this

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I'm Still Hurting

I'm asking God to forgive me
As I just want to once again be happy
I'm still hurting from before
And I don't think I can take it anymore
I thought that I had moved on
But I couldn't have been more wrong
It still hurts like that very first day
That I knew you had officially walked away
And I've cried so much
Because I honestly felt crushed
But I guess I meant nothing to you
And you probably don't care that you broke my heart in two
Just writing this is hard for me
Eyes so filled with tears that I can't see
They said addressing the issue will help you
But I'm not believing that to be true
And I'm trying to keep my hurt from turning into anger
So that I won't say or do something that puts us both in danger
But you have no clue of what I want to do
Because I truly adored you
So I'm admitting this in hopes of finding closure
Lord knows I need it for sure
Hurting because I still love you
And don't know what to do
I've never felt this way before
And I don't want to hurt anymore
So please forgive me
I only want to make me happy

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