Bleeding Heart

Love isn't something that you go looking for
And for some it can seem like a revolving door
For some it can make life happy
Yet I haven't found what it does for me
So these are the days of my life
I can't even say that I've been living right
All I know is that my heart bleeds heavy
And I feel that I'm finally ready
Ready for love and happiness
But all I come across is lies and mess
Sometimes I feel love isn't for me
That I'm not meant to be happy
Because this heavy heart and tear filled eyes
Are a result of too many lies
And with so much hurt in the past
I don't know how long I can last
I'm afraid of what's to come
Because of whats already been done
It's with a heavy heart that I quit trying
But after a while you get tired of crying
So maybe one day
Love will come my way
But until then
I'll be my own best friend